Over the weekend, i had my first 3 or 4 experiences with DMT. But on Saturday i had the most intense experience so far, i totally left my body and flew through spiraling wormholes of energy and intricate designs and fractals and geometric shapes! I felt this presence entangling me, i felt myself slip away and let go. I was no longer "me", i was everything, everything was me, i was one with the universe, and it accepted me as i was, i showed no fear and all the love i could muster flowed through me and out of me. These entity's loved me back and showed me great things, i had come off with a better understanding of life and love and the flow of consciousness. Oh the harmony of the universe! I felt myself crying because i felt so much love, i was shocked back into the wormhole and the fractals were spinning and i felt this presence leaving me. And as my visions started to subside and my body and mind started to feel more attached and "normal" i was saying in my mind "DONT LEAVE, PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME, YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL". The pressence left and i slowly but surely came back to reality, after about 30 minutes i was fine, but never forgetting or letting go what i had just experienced, and i am forever changed by this.

So last night (monday night) Last night i started feeling very uneasy while i was driving, it started to feel like the back of my head was throbbing. I concentrated on this throbbing and out of nowhere my body was going through these shocks like i was coming up on DMT. I started to experience the overwhelming feeling that i was dying. I started to say to my friend "oh my god paige, im dying, what the hell, im dying! she freaks out and i am not feeling well at all at this point, i almost feel like my body is being sucked into unconsciousness and i am almost excepting the fact that i am dying. After a minute of this intense feeling of eternal decent i start to come back, i slowly stop thinking so intensely about death and feel more like im tripping. I park at a convenient store parking lot to take in and think more clearly about what just happened. the rest of the night i felt this super weird body energy and head energy. Every so often i would start to feel that pull on my body and my consciousness but would slowly kill it before it became to intense. I was also struggling with what felt like a presence in my mind talking to me, telling me that i was going to die and to except it. I finally went home around midnight and fell asleep. today i feel like im almost tripping again. feeling uncomfortable with my consciousness almost.

This is super strange. Can anyone give me any insight as to why i might be feeling this way? I am a totally happy person, my life is great! I had a wonderful experience in the woods and had never felt so much love, the forest was acknowledging the fact that my consciousness and my heart were one with the universal order of things. I broke through and returned feeling totally enlightened. But after last night, i feel uneasy with my self and my surroundings. I consider myself spiritual, and i am on the right path but need assistance. Maybe someone can point me in the right direction of some readings on understanding and centering the mind? maybe good meditation practices or maybe some literature on spiritual guidance. I am still feeling really strange, and have this huge glowingness about me, my head feels super crazy and i almost feel like im on a permanent trip.

Thanks for taking the time to read and reply!

-G